hello(:
omg.i passed my maths!after like 7 years!shit mann.i was damn shocked la.ohh.and i passed my accounts too.but i'm still not updated on humanities overall): fook mann.if i fail overall i'll just cry my eyeballs out la.watehwer.
i was talking to dee and i blurted out something.so he kept bugging me about it.so i messaged him 3 letters and made him figure it out.and he did!damn fast mann.but he's only going to tell me on friday): so long la.omg.i'm damn nervous.its been a year since i've said that.last time i dont know anything what right.so not paiseh.now.haiyer.i'm already panicking.ahhh!FOOOOK!ohh.and i was damn pissed with someone yesterday.how come she never appreciate all the little things i do?giving up is the total ultimate best idea(: ohh well.till the next time(:


;everything happens for a reason.

hello(:
hoho.i'm bored.oh mann.dee's making me confused la.i dont know what to do.omg.so annoying.CA is soon!ahh!so fast la.then dee and me must stop seeing again): it has only been like VERY VERY SHORT.omg.so annoying.EEYER.i DONT think i still like that idiot.hoho.like finally mann.dave and jar doesnt know yet.i need help!







;dont be fronting like you dont know whats going on.

hello(:
went tiong in the morning to meet purpley and pinkey.hoho.then stupid xuewen came late.haiyer.then went to town to watch my super ex girlfriend.omg.damn funny sia.and the cinema was like uber freezing.then we went to take neos.hoho.damn retarded la.then we walked around heeren,went back to cine and had tea break at TCC.but we only had drinks there.so we went to food court to eat.yay!i ate dumplings(: then we walked around for awhile then went to orchard mrt.hoho.then went home(: dee called.and it was about time for him to call.ahh!elaine!xuewen!what should i do?oh mann.watehwer.till the next time(:




;i thought you were my fairytale and dream when i'm not sleeping.

hello(:
omg.hasnt it been like ages?many stuff happened.and i dont think i can list all of them in one post.heh.life's OKAY and stuff.and i'm still not over her?yeah.sadly.oh watehwer.i've been watching high school musical like over and over again.its damn nice la.i bought the soundtrack too!omg.ohh.tomorrow is :DD ultra slack for like the whole day!
i watched part of brokeback mountain.omg.its super sad la.ahh!just super duper thumbs up for jake and heath(: they broke record sia.heh.and shane from L word is just.OMG.






:coach said to fake right,break left.

hello(:
today was ...i thought outing at ps was going to be fun la!EEYER.ohh whatever.eh npz!i hate you too la!and who are you to call her a fucker?you can call me that.go ahead.it doesnt affect me one bit.what do you have against her?she has many things that you dont have.so dont you go around bad mouthing her.whatever you say about her,is my business.and i totally can handle it.you pissed me off enough.fucker duo sounds great.so i think i'll live with it.rot in hell knight(: i'd love to see that one day.i'll patiently wait eh!idiot i miss you!): i miss the way you never stop laughing when you start to.till the next time(:







;i miss us being idiots together.

hello(:
yay!june holidays are here!i'm so happy mann.i need a break super badly!my class are going steamboat at marina today.but too bad i cant): i have a small family reunion.hoho.oh well.i'm lazy to blog.idiot i miss you):











;all i got to do is look into your eyes to lose myself.

hello):
had ptc today.EEYER.my papa didnt like scold me or anything.but i felt dissapointed): nobody knows how hard i tried okay.rarrrh!i passed one pathetic subject!damn you exam!ohh whatever.i'm going to go bonkers this june): i must study whatever thats been covered and stuff.ohh mann.tia's going to be a nerd.i dont want to retain okay.i dont want to be in the same class as some people okay.some thick skin eel!please mann.i will never ever like you.i thought we were like bestfriends.you got the cheek to tell your friends that i like you?EEYER.please mann.i feel somethings about to come out my throat mann.YUCK!whatever mann.i want to die la.i want GREEN coffin with many red roses.MANY!yay!i'm so psycho mann.hoho.eh i miss idiot): i cant imagine holidays.i'll just cry my eyeballs out la.ahhhh!idiot i miss you): the distance between us is one big space.i hope that we'll be like before.ohh wells.i've always hope for better days for you and i(: till the next time(:



;i kept my distance but i never let go.

hello(:
i didnt go to school today!hoho.i woke at 5 and started saying 'i dont want to go to schooooool!'then i woke up at 8,turned to some cartoon.then i had a missed call from ezaty's house.then i started scratching my head la.so i called back and heard her "just woke up" voice.hoho.funnaye la.and she didnt come to school too!so cool please.so we made up a new title! PON SCHOOL PARTNERS(: hoho.retarded mann.i decided to not come today and better come on thursday and friday!just for the sake of seeing all the everyday stupid faces(: i'm going to miss all of them!hoho.sounds like graduation eh!i heard that ronin came to our school today?lik ewwwness la.i'm not sure if daniel ong was there.but i was lucky not to see him!he tries too hard to console the contestants in a ... way.I <3 GURMIT SINGH!hoho.oh well.i miss that idiot!till the next time(:





;after all I put you through you still stuck around and stayed by my side.

hello(:
today was super funnaye la.syf was like dead tiring la.omg.absolutely everybody was fun fun FUN!stupid elane make me laugh like siao worxxx.the instructor asked to sing then she sang like super loud lor.haiyer.the rest of the schools were like ...no comments mann.the "never bathe" secondary school.hoho.swear to the left!swear to the right!i want to hoot that instructor la.bahh!i miss that idiot super much): i know i dont show it.but behind her i do!is very hard not to miss that idiot okay.i really feel like doing something stupid right now.rarrh!ohh whatever la.till the next time(:







;you're with him and not with me.

hello(:
went towning today.i'm damn kiasu la.i was suppose to meet elaine at raffles place at 11.30 but i came at 11.20!hoho.then i waited at the wrong side.so malu la!then we went town,booked tickets for over the hedge.damn funnaye la.the both of us couldnt stop laughing.hoho.then we were super bored coz the show ended at 2.45!so we happily walked to heeren and took neoprints.the pictures were all super spastic la.ohh the fun!our feet were all painful la.and my mouth cramp la!all thanks to stupid xiiaao bung bung!make me laugh like siao la.hoho.the xiiaao ppriincess and xiiaao bungg bungg outing!that was ultra random la.hoho.superr ah liiannxx wannabexx worxxzz.omg.next week is damn tiring la.syf thingys.rarrrh!its not our fault lor.its like early in the morning then ask us to dance?hello!havent warm up yet la!haiyer.ohh whatever.i hate you knight!I HATE YOU!rarrh!till the next time(:




;mungkin saja kau bukan yang dulu lagi mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi.

hello(:
it's been like ages since i last updated.i'm so internet deprived.hoho.many things happened these 3 weeks.rarrh!i was going through a serious depression la.omg.it was damn scary.like i'd breakdown evry now and then.but everything alright now i guess.and like i havent stepped on town grounds for 3 weeks!hammer jammer mann.and i've been obsessed with malay songs recently.hoho.i'm going nuts la.i'm beginning to like seriously hate exam periods.coz i'll be ultra depressed and stuff.haiyer.ohh whatever la.my life's damn boring.omg.till the next time(:







;hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu,selalu selalu dalam hatiku.

hello(:
i'm happy happy girl!hawhaw.and i hope to stay this way.when slacking with shan,dave and pz yesterday.and yeah.i was super happy.talked to her yesterday and today(: i've been uber happy.and i want to for a long long time.i hate to sulk.it isnt good fo health.she said wth and i melt on the spot.and i cant wait to see her.its just the way she says it.ahhh!see.i'm going nuts again.i think i'm too soft with her.eh i gave in many times already la.and i hope that i'll start all over again.yay!a brand new start(: and i'm sure that everything will be fine.and we'll be just like before(: hawhaw.i'm feeling great today.haha.i shall stop here.till the next time(:







; I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand.

drive for all time-westlife

It's easy to fool around it's harder to keep the faith
But I wanna settle down no matter what it takes
If I ever break your heart if I ever do you wrong
I hope I never give you cause to doubt where you belong
If a million miles were between us
I'd want you to know
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean
I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time
Some people want it all some only want the fun
But I'm here to let you know that I'm all about the love
Some people let it show some people wait too long
Well I'm gonna tell you now that you're always number one
If a million miles were between us
I'd want you to know
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time (:

hello(:
syf was damn dead yesterday.i guess my mood was shit la.some fucking apnn was grouped at one spot and damn stink and show attitude lor!wth.chicken backside la!and i guess smething else had to spoil my mood.bahh!whatever.i'm not bothered anymore.i'm not going to let some tiny shit bring me down.shan wants me to smile more.eh when you mix around with too may irritating saddist,how to smile?haiyer.many stuff are bothering me.what worries me even more is the coming SA!wahlao.i must pass accounts,history,ss,english,malay,and comb science.RARRH!means lesser time for fun and get my ass to work): damn.its for a few weeks only anyways.then june,can SLACK SLACK SLACK!hawhaw.bahh.i wish i didnt hear anything it from w.haiyer.its her choice so i've got nothing to lose right?oh wth.i dont want to be upset anymore.i must smile more!
after syf thing yesterday me,judy,audrey and bernice wanted to take 75 together.me and judy left bernice and audrey at the bustop for awhile then went to long john.and we happily talked and forgot abput the poor 2.hawhaw.my trip in 75 was uber fun please.we were havoc i tell you.not that i notice mr lau was in the bus.here's my advice,never stand opposite audrey wong in the bus.she play kungfu fighting each time the bus jerks.and who suffer?me and judy's toes.hawhaw.then she cha cha also la.my kungfu fighting partner is WAHLAO!now i'm aching from head to toe.bahh!we have to take 75 again one day.i didnt go to school today!i sprained my ankle and it hurts super badly): i triped over th corner of my bed.wah piang!till the next time(:




;the thoughts in my head,when we danced and we sang and we laughed all night.

if your hearts not in it-westlife(:


I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
And there's nothing that I can do
To stop me losing you
I can't make you change your mind
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

hello(:
gosh.this week is damn RARRRH!so asshole.i cant keep lying to myself la.i dont feel okay la.i have this urge to press my blade on my hand and SLASH!but i dont see the point of doing that.its so passe for me.not like i can change anything that happened right.you shouldnt have made me believe.and at least tell me la.you wasted so much of my time.and it hurts even more to hear it from someone else): i beg you to make me hate you.i've tried so hard to.and i wanted to give up as a friend.you leave me with no choice.you broke your promise.so wht do you expect me to do?i've tried giving up,and stay far away.i'm sorry for whatever that happened.and i'll take the blame.i thank you for EVERYTHING.






;gone are the tears that i've cried.

hello(:
i guess i've been OKAY.yeah mann.i've done something bad but wth.its like a daily routine for me.seeing blood is fascinating i tell you.i'm not foolish or anything.nor am i saddist.i'm super hell of shits.RARRRH!so annoying mann.haiyer.and that person too!that 46(: i've been giving people blind codes.hawhaw.46 is getting me damn confused and stuff.wth la.yes?no?dont know?wahlao!i hate being in this situation la.somethings are better left unsaid.sigh): see!here i go again!wahpiang.i'm stuck to close to you by taufik(: its fucking WAH!heh.dave told me the next time i breakdown,i must go beside a tree.so asshole la.i've been having serious breakdowns this whole week.and today's the 13th.rarrh!i always hate the 13 of every month.bad things happen.REAL bad things.haiyer.hawhaw.shall stop here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUA SIHUI!(:


;but losing you has forced me to learn.

hello(:
gosh.i'm super annoyed.some people are so screwed please.i guess she cant find any other people to accuse la.HELLO!you guys are attached right?might as well just face it and dont go blaming me!so ass please.i think pz is super la!gosh.you fall into the slightest flirtation.so despo mann.rarrh!whatever la.i cant be bothered to entertain your fucking nonsense.show some intelligence mann!eh you damn smart right?you excel this excel that.basic sense never excel ar?dont make sense la.i think i was super blind.gosh.i can seriously puke right now.you're my biggest mistake la.omg.i shant talk about that asshole anymore.as you said,the next time i see you,you dont know me and i dont know you.you good!i dont give a damn la.hawhaw.
and theres some other people.sigh.she's getting me confused.that person isnt what i thought she is!gosh.then whats with the things she said?whatever she showed me?i held on for so long.at least have the courtesy to tell me la.i waited for so long,and suddenly BOOM!it all falls to pieces.sigh.i'm going to pretend that i never knew your secret,and that we were just like before.its hard for me to say that i'll get over it and move on.coz i know i wont.the things you said to me just wont go away.just like my to be gone 10166 wish):

keshia,you've screwed my life enough.i hope you fall into coma one day and be stupid for the rest of your life.australia wont be your option.you dont know me and i so dont know you.HAWHAW.i'm totally cool with that(: oh and good luck to you and anailuJ.gosh.how lame can you get mann.






;i can talk all night just to hear you breathe.

hello):
i didnt go to school today.had diarrhoea la.early in the morning la!so cb mann.and my ahem hurts.rarrrh!okay.i guess that isnt the only thing thats upsetting me.gosh.i cant stand it.this thing with ____ is messing with my brain.sucks la.sigh.i really dont know what to do.my brain is dead.and i'm super depressed.whatever la.you make me doubt you so much.dont come blaming me in the end.i've tried my best la.till the next time(:









;if your heart's not in it for real,please dont try to fake what you dont feel.

hello(:
its been years since i last posted.hawhaw.i guess not many interesting things happened.yeah.i wasnt talking to ___ for many days.which is really upsetting and stuff.i've made up my mind!i'm not going to give up on ____!i promise i wont.if ____ tells me to,then i promise that i will.hawhaw.see how nice i am.coz it was my fault and stuff.so i guess my 10166 fantasy wont happen.): that just sucks.but its for the best.i dont want to get hurt. and i dont want ____ to get hurt too.that'll just hurt me even more.and i think that ____ feelings are not there.as you said "why i've been wasting my time on someone who wont even care about me."
yeah.even though i've tried my best to give you what you need.i'll try and ty again.coz i dont plan to give up.(: not on you.i'm off now.till the next time(:





;sorry seems to be th hardest word.